It's Wednesday againnn!...Again she arrived but from a great distance which was over 2km...Cuz she was on dancing class but mistakenly arrived to the wrong location...Okh!!She arrived but not looking at me...Looking somewhere else like ignoring me...She stood still indicating me to come...Due to the presence of us in a area under Tanmoy Sir...I decided to go from backside...She waited on that road...When I was on the other side of that road, she was missing after 5 mins I decided to move on that road...When I just started going she suddenly reappeared and questioned me where I was...I said that I waited for her on that road thinking of her coming from that road...Anyways...We started walking and talking...She was telling me to wear the cap where I denied...I was feeling soo cold but after her arrival I forgot about them all and just stared at her at constant...I left her to that particular road of Partha sir... As alwayss I forgot all the topics I decided to discuss with her and talked just random topics...It's been more than 8 months and still it's difficult for me to talk to her without nervousness...Huhh!!!

I just want to talk to her for two hours straight at a beautiful place, face to face. A place surrounded by garbage can also be beautiful with her. I just want to take a moment and feel comfortable.

However, what I hate the most about her is that she always acts like we are just friends. She never pressures me or tries to please me, but I love that about her so much. Being without a sister, I always love to have someone who can convince me to have something...

Today, during a WhatsApp message, she mentioned "if possible" in brackets, which hurt me. Because if I could wait for her for 20 minutes and ride more than 6 km by cycle, why can't I wait for her for just 10 minutes again? But one thing I must appreciate is that she also walked for me for 2 km when she asked me to wait for her.

After a long time, we finally chatted with each other on WhatsApp at midnight. We talked about how our days are going. I asked her about a lot

of pending topics, and we spoke for more than 45 minutes. But we had to stop talking because my mom was asking for the phone.

I started my year of 2023 with a heartwarming smile as I began the year talking with her from 12:16 to 1:21 AM. It was one of the best chats ever. We talked with romance, and it was so cute. I can't explain each and every conversation, but I love her so much.

We planned to go to the fair Doars Utsav on Monday, the 16th, and it was going to be a beautiful and wonderful night.

Yesterday, on January 13th, she went to Doars Utsav with her brother and mother. My friends met her and talked with her, but I couldn't. I couldn't even see her. I just saw the video where she had her ride on Chand Tara. It was bad luck.

Again, with a little hope, I landed in Doars Utsav to see her dance, but when I arrived, she wasn't there. I waited for one hour and thirty minutes straight, but I didn't see anyone from her family. I thought she was in the green room having her next dance, but I didn't see her dancing because it was time for me to leave.

Finally, I had the best day on January 16th, 2023. I enjoyed a lot with her. I surprised her from behind, and she grabbed my hand to move to the Expo. We were just walking with the crowd, talking about random topics. We decided to ride the Giant Wheel. Bhargabi wanted to ride with her, but she was afraid I would scold her after, so she let Sia go with me. Sia and I entered the chamber, and during the ride, neither of us was afraid. Then we returned to see Yasser Deshai on stage. We ate Chowmein and took some pictures of her. When the song started, she quietly and carefully wrapped her arm around mine. After that, she held my hand with our fingers interlaced. She said my hands were too cold, so she put them inside her coat's pocket. I said my hand wouldn't get warm as it was empty inside, so she put her hand in too and grabbed mine inside the pocket. I can still feel the warmth of her hands. Her every touch wasn't just for my hands; it warmed my heart too. Her love let me feel close to her always. With her, I enjoyed the best Doars Utsav ever.